LONELY

Jan. 7th

I had my first cry last night. I'd watched the music videos from Christmas and looked at some pictures--and then I cried for the rest of the evening. I miss my family.

Today's the first day I haven't had a schedule to follow, so I think that's made the thoughts of my family harder to put aside. That, and not being able to connect to the internet for 2 days. Mum says she doesn't even try if it's cloudy and raining.

Today I feel cut off from my "other world." It would help if I could see what other people are doing on Facebook, or email Marty, or update my blog.
And now I think I'll try to have a nap. I've learned over the years that things are easier to handle if I'm well rested.
I love you and miss you all.
Jan. 9th update:
The 3rd day was sunny and yet my computer would still not load Explorer. I asked Mum about her internet stick--and Explorer loaded for her, no problem. I began to suspect that my prepaid internet stick was out of time. Today I asked Arnold to check the stick for me and sure enough--out of time but not showing it. Guess I'm not used to this different way of using Internet.
I tried twice to upload a video, and I think this used up most of my prepaid data.
So: photos I'll upload from home, but videos will wait for the internet cafe in Blantyre.

I feel much better!